Yesterday at my parents’ house, the Troy was being very “talkie” and so his Grammie took the opportunity to try to get him to say “Mama.” He was staring very intently at her lips as she repeated it over and over, exaggerating the two syllables. Soon he was copying her, and this five and a half month old Little Boy has hardly stopped saying it since. All morning I’ve been hearing “Maaaa Maaaa, Ma mAAAA, Maaama…” Of course, I know that he does not really understand what his saying Mama means, but it still melts my little heart!
He doesn’t know my weaknesses or my fear of incompetance. He doesn’t know that his Mama is young and is sure that others are watching her wondering if she’ll be up to the task of raising him with his Daddy. He just knows that this is the person who loves him, feeds him, cares for him, holds him when he cries and blows the tears away.
I know the truth, though. I know that this is an unbelievable responsibility God has given us. He has entrusted to us His little person and expects us to be good stewards with what He’s given us, not only in caring for him physically, but spiritually–leading him to Jesus. The enormity of it frightens me. It reminds me of how desperate I am for the strength of the Lord in this life long endeavor. In giving us this baby, God has given us the greatest means of drawing us closer to Himself. We see now, more than ever, how weak we are and how great God is. My baby… my blessing… It is all summed up when I hear his tiny little voice learning to mouth the word I’ve longed to hear. “Mama.”
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Beautiful thoughts! I can understand what you mean, in part, because I am expecting our first child, and have had similar things run through my mind. May the Giver of these precious gifts help us to lean fully on Him as we try to shepherd their young lives and hearts!
What an clear picture of our relationship with the Lord and His awesome grace in our weak hearts. How much we need Him!
This reminded me of the song Knowing You.
chorus:
Knowing You, Jesus
Knowing You
There is no greater thing
You’re my all
You’re the best
You’re my joy, my rightousness
And I love you, Lord
Thank you Ashleigh!
Aww Ashleigh even though i’ve not had a child of my own just yet i know how sweet they can be and how much of a blessing it is to raise a child
May your baby bring you joy and many blessings in the years to come. To hear the word Mama must have made you so proud of your sweet baby
There is nothing as sweet as having your very own child to hold to love and to cherish and to bring him/her to Christ…i guess i can’t wait to have my very own child someday!!
What a day that will be…i will cherish that future child forever!
Ok sorry for such a long post…Have a blessed day Ashleigh!
And thank you so much for such a wonderful post! and for reminding us just how beautiful children are
Thanks so much!
have a wonderful day!
May God Bless You!
PTL (praise the Lord)
Jane.